What happens when you take a blob of something different and you force it into the cookie cutter world of shiduchim?
Friday, February 13, 2009
(I wrote this the minute I got off the phone with my friend, when she called to say she is unofficially engaged. I felt so selfish that I was feeling that way, but I am told it is a normal feeling... I waited till it was official to post this, so here it is. This friend is my only real life friend who knows about my blog, so I hope and pray that she doesn't read this...)
How do you describe the feeling? Excitement reaches to the ceiling, But I don't feel like I'm even dealing!
It's going be tomorrow night, My friend a kallah? What a sight! So why do I suddenly feel such fright?
Why do my eyes feel a little wet, What reason is there, to be upset? When my friend and her chosson have now met!
Lechaim, vort and shower too! "Im yirtzeh Hashem by you!" She now has so much stuff to do!
I can't help but feel a tinge of despair, As she moves on, and leaves me here, But my day doesn't seem anywhere near!
It's my confidant, my closest friend, Who's wedding I now have to attend, But our friendship as I know it will now end!
It's not completely selfish you see, I'm thrilled to see her so happy, Yet I can help but think of me!
The first words that she said tonight, When she called me sounding bright, Tried to make me feel alright,
She kind of failed with that endeavor, To make me think this would last forever, And our current friendship wouldn't sever,
"We'll always be best friends you know, Or else I really wouldn't go, You're not a friend I would just throw!"
But now it's different, don't deny! You'll have a husband, and that's why! But what about me? I'll just stand by.
So yes my dear, I'm thrilled for you! I'm really happy, through and through! But it's hard for me, I'll say it too!